Are You Having A Baby?

 Mr C as a baby, we had only taken him home 2 days earlier

Yesterday afternoon a client asked if I was having a baby.  I had to think about this as everyone in the office knows I am having a baby, a pug baby.  But then as I looked at her I realised she was staring at my belly.  My PCOS belly.

Since I left uni and my (then un-diagnosed) PCOS symptoms started, I have always been an apple shape and as time went on and my symptoms got worse my belly grew.  I always though I would be asked if I was pregnant, I thought it looked like I was always around 4 months along.  But no one ever said anything because it is a social rule never to ask, even if a woman looks like she is about to drop you still are not supposed to ask.

I said ''No".  The woman looked horrified and began apologizing and saying she shouldn't have said anything.  In the middle of this awkward moment I spewed forth verbal diarrhea of "No not yet" and "Only a dog" followed with "No drama don't worry about it".

But it has stuck with me.  I was wearing what I thought was a very flattering black dress that I doubt I will touch again.  I even had my special 'suck-in' undies on.  Maybe I am just not trying hard enough.   Maybe I am using my PCOS as an excuse to do a half job.  Sure PCOS is why I struggle with weight and why it sits around my belly but isn't it also my get out of jail free card for not losing weight?  I have PCOS therefore I can't lose weight? I have PCOS therefore I have a big belly and that means I don't have to do anything about it?  This client has certainly given me a lot to think about, perhaps I really do need to get on with a healthier lifestyle just a little bit more than I am. Maybe it is time to put more into my efforts and cut out the remaining excuses.  Perhaps her brazen comment was exactly the shake up I needed.  I know I will ponder this over the weekend in the back of my mind, that is until our new baby does come along on Sunday afternoon.