To A Long Lost Friend

"A friend is for a reason, a season or a lifetime".  I have had many friends throughout my life and for some I do wonder what happened to them.  Here is a letter to someone who was a great friend to me when I was a uni student.

Dear Flis,

Sometimes I find myself wondering what happened to you.  I always felt bad about the last time we spoke.  Do you remember?  You were walking down the hill from the station and you saw me walking across the road to get into my car.  You walked over and said "Hello".  I smiled and made pleasantries, but I told you I desperately had to go.  You looked upset and walked off.  The thing was I really did have to go, I had a Dr's appointment and I couldn't be late.  Perhaps I should have told you that.  I never heard from you again, but I was in a bad place at the time and I didn't tell you because of all the bad places you had been.

I always enjoyed our friendship, you went out of your way to make me feel welcome and I was happy spending time with you.  We did a lot together and spent many Sunday evenings drinking coffee and talking for what felt like hours.  However I remember at some point things changed.  I'm unsure of the specifics, I didn't ask about the history, I just knew you were struggling.

You ended up in hospital.  I came to see you with Cathy and we arranged to go for a walk a few kilometres down the road.  On our walk we found a small antique shop and we walked in and looked around.  In there you purchased 3 little murrina glass hearts and you gave one to each of us and told us it was to remember the day.  To be honest that was a tough day for me, it was confronting and you wanted to talk about your treatment and that was difficult for me.  I wanted to help you but I felt so helpless.

Of course you did get better, you went back home and I often came to your granny flat where you would cook dinner and we would watch movies together.  Extremely kind and thoughtful you always were, I truly appreciated our friendship and I'm sorry we have lost touch.  Things took a turn for me and it was ugly.  I was afraid to upset you with my stuff as I thought you were still fragile.

I hope you are well, happy and content and that perhaps you have met a wonderful man who treats you with abundant kindness, the way you treated everyone.  I remember we talked often of our future husbands.  I met mine and he is everything I wanted and more, and I am now in the best place I have ever been.

Take Care